Wow so much has happened since i last posted. I'm sitting outside of work waiting to go kn and I'm thinking about this past year. Its been a long rough year. But I think things are atarting to look up for us. I finally got a job!! Thank god!
We ser off balloons on August 4th. Which would have been setenity's due date. We put papers in the balloons explaining what happened and to email us if someone found the papers. Still no emails but I'm staying hopeful. Justin and I have come along way. It is still hard everyday knowing our baby will never be in our ams or that we will never be able to watch her grow up. But thats ok because she wil forever be watching us grow up. I think it may be getting a little easier every week deing with her not being here but I still have my days where I don't wantbto get ot of bed because ita just to much to handle.
Justin and I have decided to buy a house. And no babies until wevare both ready. Guess what...km ready . He's not and I promise to wait til he's ready. Forever and always baby. Just dont take 10 years lol.
I think 3-5 will be along enough wait. I've decided that this to e around wee doing everything the way its supposed to be done. Diet exercise meds everything will be by the book as much as possible. I'm looking forward to the day when we can finally enjoy our own precious little bundle but until then
.. I have a niece due in 4'weeks that I can enjoy. I can't wait to meet Mattie Elizabeth. She's just what this family needs . A breathe of fresh air all wrapped up in a precious pink bundle.
Well its time for work.
Keep your head up and smile bright. Dream big and put your life, hopes, and dreams kn gods hands.
We ser off balloons on August 4th. Which would have been setenity's due date. We put papers in the balloons explaining what happened and to email us if someone found the papers. Still no emails but I'm staying hopeful. Justin and I have come along way. It is still hard everyday knowing our baby will never be in our ams or that we will never be able to watch her grow up. But thats ok because she wil forever be watching us grow up. I think it may be getting a little easier every week deing with her not being here but I still have my days where I don't wantbto get ot of bed because ita just to much to handle.
Justin and I have decided to buy a house. And no babies until wevare both ready. Guess what...km ready . He's not and I promise to wait til he's ready. Forever and always baby. Just dont take 10 years lol.
I think 3-5 will be along enough wait. I've decided that this to e around wee doing everything the way its supposed to be done. Diet exercise meds everything will be by the book as much as possible. I'm looking forward to the day when we can finally enjoy our own precious little bundle but until then
.. I have a niece due in 4'weeks that I can enjoy. I can't wait to meet Mattie Elizabeth. She's just what this family needs . A breathe of fresh air all wrapped up in a precious pink bundle.
Well its time for work.
Keep your head up and smile bright. Dream big and put your life, hopes, and dreams kn gods hands.
